Watched MAMA just now. This made me thought of those days when Hebe came to SG and I am like a crazy Siao-ing about her! Super nice!
Just know that Hebe will be coming to SG next year again!! OMG! Die. Won't be able to go to her concert... I mean SOLO concert for sure.
T.T Sian diao.
Alright, nvm will see how things goes on next year. Shall start revising tmr since Hebe's time is over! Super looking forward to Christmas and a outing soon with Mily and outing soon with beloved 269! XD
Next year 2012, busy and crazy year, but I'm still afraid of 2012.
Jaylin was right. My world doesn't revolve around her. If I continue the way I am now, it will be seen as I am living for her only.
XY and the others were back from their camp. Great and happy to hear that. I can't go out today because if I do, I might not be able to go for Hebe's autograph session although I did said that I don't want to. Okay, I'm weird.
Was fuming mad because of something yesterday. See through something through yesterday's incident. Now I really know who are the ones that will really be with me.
Thanks to them.
For now, I won't say anything much. I've been an idiot throughout the whole session. I am stupid.
Feel so down after talking to JY while walking back from school. Jon was like walking in front of us and didn't even bother to reply us when we called him. What's wrong with people now a days? -.- Walao jidan right? Really very tired sia.
And for now, don't really feel like going to Hebe's autograph session already. Like seriously. I. Don't. Feel. Like. Going.
Feel like deleting everything. I really don't understand why people tend to forget what they've said so easily? They have STM is it? Wts. Then why I am the one that has good memories and remembered everything they've said? WTH RIGHT?
I should become STM also right? Really sick and tired.
I should really have my life back and become myself again. It has been 3 months already and this kind of shit haven't even settle. Omg... 269, where are all of you? I want my happy life back!!!
Decided to 退出工委活動 and I like sms-ed the in-charge like 2 hour ago and SHE IS NOT REPLYING ME!!! Omg... I am afraid she is like angry so something. How can a person didn't check her phone for like 2 hours? ._.
Some more, just know that those who bought Sundown tickets will have the priority to queue for Hebe's autograph. Like wow. So this is the "報應" for not getting sundown tickets? ._. Totally sian diao can?
After that 2 months or so, we ate on the same table together for yesterday... Like finally.... Do all sorts of stupid things to her... That was what I will do in the past.
Are we back to normal? Or there's still a gap between us....
I was like...
Today walked back together with her from PP. Then it was like... So quite all the way until we met Haslam and his group.
I don't need space. Why do I need such a big space for? For me to dream? To sleep? I don't need a SPACE! What I need is a.... Sigh...
You think JY is that free? She is going to sit beside me 24/7 listening to me crying, talking about my craps to her. So you think she don't have her own problem... Great. So you think she can understand me for everything?
WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?? WHAT THE HELL?!
Ya right. Ya right. I deserve a slap lah har. I deserve that. Now, crying to who is = zero.
What the hell. I should really go jump into the sea just now right? I am now like.... what the hell...
S.H.E 10th anniversary video. Haha.. It's damn funny. Especially near to 5.22
Hebe: 朋友，朋友，都已不够来形容。。。
(Ella still in Laland...) Ella: 干吗？
Selina: 她忘词了啦！！
Ella: 你现在出了个人专辑就忘了我们专辑的歌词！现在赶快下载xxxx歌词给她
Selina: 她说，朋友，朋友都已不够来形容。她以为。。她以为我是周华建。。。
ROFL!!! This is damn funny!!!
But I know this laughter is only for a while only.
Just yesterday, I did something that was real painful for me. It's really damn pain. I bet no one will know how I felt.
"I feel like deleting you, cuz I can't stop thinking...."
Through this sentence, my reaction was What the Hell? I stone in front of my computer for a few moment. I went to my follower page. Look at her name again. A lot of things went through my mind at that moment. With just 2 clicks, I ended everything. After all the process. I lean back, my heart felt so pain like ever before. Ever.
I really have got nothing to say, I swear. Losing one friend is like losing your husband or whatever. And I know very well, all this cause by myself.
I once thought that if she have not asked that question on 8/8, I think all this will not happened.
But for now, is all too late.
Still, I thank you for what you gave me in the past. I have a lot fun when I am with you. All the fun, crying, laughing, screaming for Hebe....
Maybe... Just maybe, we might not go back to the past again... We might not be as close as the photo below...
Feeling down at this moment because I have no idea how to give my mum to sign my paper with that idiot beside. WTH. Can someone just save me?
I felt so fail today. 3 test with such a lol results that I don't and didn't expect myself to have it. I don't understand myself that why others can understand such a simple concept but I can't. I don't understand, simply don't.
JF and XY and simply get a 31 and 27 but why must I get this kind of marks? Even if I did study I still get this kind of marks? LOL? Joke? God, are you trying to play with me or what?
Everything that ahma said was right lah. Jidan. I am speechless whenever she open's her mouth. Omg...
How? How am I going to survive through end of year? ._. So what if I get a 70/100 for EOY? It won't pull me up to A or B4. WTH! I DON'T WANT TO DROP TO SUB SCIENCE! Omg... I know with the help of LJY, it won't help much. It's all too late lah. EOY is just like how many months away? I've got so many to catch up. WTH!
Just let me die lah then I don't have to worry so much. I am really very tired to care about everything already. Kao.
I told JY or someone while we walk back don't know from where to classroom:
她失踪了。找不回来。她失踪在很大很大的森林里，我找不到她。回不了过去。谁都无法找到她。
Omg. LSE! WHERE ARE YOU? I lost one friend already.
Nobody will disagree with me that yesterday was such a fun day!
This is my first time having such a wonderful time with my friends this year. No doubt. How I wish the time could stop at yesterday.
Happy Belated to XY, Happy Birthday to Stan.
Today marks the start of the sells for the Sundown's tickets. Not going for sure because I felt that is like giving your money away just to see that few mins of Hebe?! Not worth. Shall save up for m DSLR and Hebe concert instead.
Now finally have time to listen to Selina's voice record. She cried again...
Don't feel like talking today in Skype. So now I am a mute.
Failed Phy very badly. I don't know what to say. I just cried to Ahma. Everything is just affecting me now. Omg. I hope I don't be a spoiler tmr.
Ahma was right. She was right. Everything she has said just now to me was right. How true it is. Omg. I want shandy now but my that damn sister drank it without my permission.
Tmr going out again = no time study= failed again.
Nobody understands the pain I am having right now. If they do, while I am talking on the phone, there won't be so many silent.
I am gonna heck care about the DV campus since my group doesn't care about it despite msg-ing them. Fine, let's die man. 我又不是没死过。
2 days break is seriously none.
I want a break. A break that can last me until I recover from my wound again. I am hurt once again, just like last year. Why can't all these stops seriously? I don't understand, I really don't.
WTH you want now? Seriously? Can you don't be like LSE?
Stop being like her. I had enough of this kind of friendship game. I am suffering like last year and what is this? I HAD ENOUGH!
First I had to care about my family stuff and now is you. WTH WHAT YOU WANT?
Yesterday want to talk, today want to escape.
WTH YOU WHAT? WHAT YOU WANT?
I had enough of this game you know, really. Yes, it may seems that I am the one who starting it, but I had enough. I am out! I don't want to be like last year, cry and cry just because of one person.
This is stupid and I don't want this to occur again, just before EOY then I flunk all my subjects. I HAD ENOUGH! I AM OUT OF THIS GAME. Omg.
I have a lot of things to care about. This is not the time and now.
I will slap myself okay? Is my fault.
I don't want that idiotic pain to come back just like last year. I am out of this game. Last yesr is not going to happen this year.
Sitting in front of computer typing this today, alone.
Friends, I seriously doubt this word, again. Who the hell invented this word? Who is it? ._.
Friends gives me so much trouble that I can't resist on. I have no idea whether did I lock my that post, but if I didn't, it would be great. Seriously.
This is like what happened to me and So Eui. This kind of thing happen again. Same period of time some more. -.-
Fate? It is fate that all the friends that I think we are close and best and knows me well will become like this? Or is it that I will eventually build a wall between them myself?
Saw this post today and I really have no idea whether it was referring to me:
I have been from translucent to transparent to you.
Wow?
Um.... I hesitated for a moment. To me, to this situation that we are facing on, it was seriously damn true.
Dear arh, why am I facing this kind of problem again like we did? ._. I seriously have no idea and don't understand. Can you teach me what to do? ._. I know right? The god is trying to play with me. He wants to take away me friends when I need them so much... like now, at this moment when I am facing a lot of shit problems... For about... 4 months already.
Sigh.
Oh, there you are on FB updating status at about 12 plus in K now? Posting in a language that I don't know....
Sigh.
When will my hell day be over? I want December to come now. Sadly, it is still July, ending soon. Time do really files. EOY coming and I am still suck at Sciences and English. What the hell am I doing? I am still suck at friendship even though I've met through lots of difficulties...
WHAT THE SHIT AND HELL AND.... AM I DOING???
What the... Seriously...
And I can't get my DSLR at the end of my 2 years.... ._.
I can't get Joe's book for now...
I can't go Sundown to look for Hebe...
I can't go whenever I like now.
I can't go London
I can't go Manchester to look for my Man Utd
I can't get an Iphone/ pod
I can't get whatever I want
I can't get a smart phone
I can't get a laptop FROM my own parents
I even think,
I can't go to Taiwan at the end of this year...
Everything is all....
I can't.
But
I need to face him EVERYDAY
I need to face those teachers who thinks they are good EVERYDAY... (accept for Weekends)
I need to get well for my studies in order to my life BETTER
I need to support her if not she will crash and burn.
I need to support these entire family ONE DAY
I need to get myself up
I need to face my stupid and crash Friendship
I need to face all my friends everyday with a fake smile
I need to GET all my stuff done before get screamed by Lao Feng again
I need to...
I need to...
I need to....
Then If I do all these,
WHO IS GOING TO SUPPORT ME?
I cannot get my Wants.
I only can get my needs...
Crap right? I am truly a no life teenager... Because,
I. AM. POOR.
I am not as rich as you or others.
I can't have a TV in my room.
My mum won't even buy my idol stuff for me. I have to get my own.
So,
I envy you. Seriously.
Since I am born to this world, 我就是命中注定。命中注定有这么一生。
He is now shaking his leg now, don't do anything. And SHE IS GOING TO CLEAR ALL HIS RUBBISH?? LIKE WHAT THE HELL
Like what the hell seriously...
I got to help too. I feel like to. I can't...
I should be the one working and not you all seriously...
I was thinking and recalling of those times that we had.
Aren't they wonderful? Ya, they were... once wonderful and happy times we had...
Today, we can't go back anymore.
Remember when 娱乐帮 was first started? I bet none remember....
Even worse, I think they had forgotten what is 娱乐帮.
These days, I have been thinking what Rachel told me about the times when Me and Mil gave her a cold shoulder... She said that
"You should have told me earlier about all these..."
Ya, true. But I didn't thought of that at that moment although YZ told me and Mil to talk to her...
Remember the first time We went to watch Soccer match.... We were so happy! Taking photo like nobody's business...
At that time, I really thought that: These are my wonderful friends who will accompany me throughout my Journey.
I... was.... wrong?
Where are they now?
S.P.I.L.T
娱乐帮 has dismiss?
When?
Mildred is no longer that Mildred where she can talk to Rachel with any topic like nobody's business. Apart from us... Drifting like nobody's business
Wen Ting is no longer that happy Wen Ting... We seldom go out together now...
YZ remains the same but no longer that engage with Rachel... Seldom with Mildred... Often with me.... Frequently with 糖醋鱼 and Chua......
Rachel who is now with XY's clique, with JY, with Jon and whoever she likes in E1... Drifting from whoever she have been in Sec 1 and 2...
and Finally...
糖醋鱼。Jolene Teo
Drifting like nobody business too. Seldom talk like what we did in the past.We can talk any rubbish, anything we like. I can cry in front of her like she is my sister. I can be that crazy in front of her... but now I can't. Maybe she don't realise. But I do.
Very engage with YZ now. I can see. The only and one topic we had now is... Hebe?!
Is this all I want?
Obviously not.
Why our topic is only revolve around Hebe? Why do we have a wall between us now? I don't see a need to... but this stupid wall have just build up.
So, is Chua the only person I can talk to now... in our clique?
I am speechless.
Where are you all? Mildred, Yi Zhen, Rachel, Chua, Wen Ting and...
I am gonna tear Mil apart. MIA like so long. She loves Malaysia yeah?! -.-
Went for a photo shooting trip today @ MBS. Conclusion: I'm in love with photography and wanna get a DSLR the moment I have that power. Currently, I love my cam very much L120. :D
Feel like asking Desmond to teach me photography skill although I am not holding a DSLR... LOLS.
I want to sing. I am so going to sing out loud. This has been in my mind for the entire day today. I don't think anybody will be free on Tuesday -.-
or
shall I sing alone? Maybe I should yeah? Although maybe going out on Thursday but there's a small chance that can go and sing... T.T
Went to Singapore Flyer today. It was totally AWESOME! It was nice using L120 to take photos of the view. It really makes me wanna get a DSLR but I know, that's impossible.
Kept on typing and posting F You on a particular day on Twitter. Okay that wasn't a good example. Sorry, I just couldn't control it. What was in my head was.... that word, ya, no doubt.
金曲奖二十二届 just ended. I think all the winners are having their party now. As expected, Hebe didn't won the Best Album award. 毕竟还算新人. Hebe 还有很长的路要走呢。。。再接再厉！
Just got this from Weibo and I think this is what makes me think that 田馥甄 is cool.
“因為在這十年當中，我們贏得的是友情，是姐妹中的愛，勝過任何東西，我們自己非常滿足的。
Yes of course, no doubt that their friendship is the most precious things among them. Admire and wish them all the best. Seriously, I think is time to put Hebe aside. I spent too much time on her.
Watched MAMA just now. This made me thought of those days when Hebe came to SG and I am like a crazy Siao-ing about her! Super nice! 
傻吗？
Are we back to the same point? I wondered. 
I don't need space. Why do I need such a big space for? For me to dream? To sleep? I don't need a SPACE! What I need is a.... Sigh... 
这是一个关于小章和老天的故事。
Jolene Teo JX 
Nobody will disagree with me that yesterday was such a fun day! 
Alone. 
選擇性的失意又浮現在我腦海裡．
我正在旅游中。而且这个旅游不是一个礼拜或一个月，而是很久很久。
Went to Singapore Flyer today. It was totally AWESOME! It was nice using L120 to take photos of the view. It really makes me wanna get a DSLR but I know, that's impossible. 
