The Revive!

Should I revive the blog? The last post was way back to 2012... JOKE MAX.

But anyway, if I really wanna revive this blog, I shall delete away my primary school post. It's so disgusting and... joke lah seriously.

Alright, will be back soon.

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The feeling just sucks lah. Faggot.

早就說，我在裏面超不開心的。因爲裏面就是有不公平的待遇。付出了這麽多，最後得到的卻是這樣的回報。

所謂一生一世的好友就是連考試，他們都會抽出或擠出那一點的時間來陪你。
但是這些，我在你們的身上就是看不到。可能，是我太在意了吧。

算了啦，我不應該再以這些的。因爲，你們就是不懂。

Could you?

I just need some care from you. Really. However, till today, I realised something: I am the most stupid and silly one. I've been an invisible person to you. Oh, so this was the msg you wanted to tell me. Alright. I got it. I should stop giving myself excuses and letting this get over me again and again. I am hurt. Ya. It's gonna be almost a year and I haven't get out of this problem. I am always going in and out of this. I had enough. Ya, those words that you've posted are hurtful, to me, maybe not to you.

Hey yo. 我在这里宣布: 我正式成为你命中的过客.

Stop. I need to stop. Since 你什么都不要做，我不需要在折磨自己。

Random

Changed my Blogskin. The previous one spoils totally... ._.

Did some reflection over the days... Guess I am on the way to my dream. I need to know and understand how the society works and not let it affect myself that much.

Very emotional and sensitive now a days. I guess this is the thing that I have to change. Tsk tsk tsk... Can't stand it.

6 more days to Hebe's concert. Can't imagine how things will be going on that day. Talk? Ignore? Mute? Or is only an outing between her and T? I am the extra one? Guess so... Can't imagine... Really can't.

Things that I can't stand it, I will either keep quiet or just let it flow away. This is because I don't want to hurt any people's feeling. Same to you. Please understand why I don't want to say out most of the things is that, the moment I blast out everything, trust me, it's either you get crazy or get hurt. So why not I just rant everything in that acc rather than this actual one? You will never want to know what I am thinking, cuz it's complicating. I will never let you in to my world until you are fully prepared and ready.

Shall stop using that account until Os is over. I will get distracted over her tweets. Hey yo, this is a hint for you to post anything you like worh... 把握机会 yo.

Gonna introduce this pretty person:

曾咏霖 OMG SHE'VE GOT A GODLY VOICE! \m/  Listen and you will know.

Trust me, she's the only one that can sing in SG! No one can ever beat her.

“有一天，你若是能進到我的心裏，你一定會落淚，因爲那裏都是你給的悲傷”

Remember you retweeted this one day?

Now, it's my turn to retweet back this to you。

._.

I am hurt deeply. Really deep. 

你说把爱渐渐，放下会走更远。。。

Tweeted that on Tuesday. I can't take it anymore. For the entire day, I couldn't get myself focus because I am thinking about this problem. I wish I could lock myself up for the rest of the year. Taking exam at home if possible (Joke lah, that won't happen). Today, I nearly can't focus on my paper because she was sitting in front of me and I've to face her back view. Omg.... WHY CAN'T MY REGISTER NUMBER BE LIKE NUMBER 1? ._. 

Came in and blogged today because I wish after what I've blogged about today, things will put to a stop. It hurts. Yes, it definitely hurts. But what hurts most is that, we hold it on and don't let it go. I see no point of holding on if everyday, we like ignoring each other, pretending that we are "BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE" when you are actually with the others and I am with my own group. We have no interaction at ALL totally ZERO interaction.  Not like YZ and Mil you know? At least they will come and talk to me. THEN? The most hurt and hated thing is that I HAVE TO BE THE ONE THAT WALKS UP OR SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME THAN YOU WILL COME AND TALK TO ME. ._. Like that Thursday when I had my Chem SPA and I cried. 

还要一起冲，还一起勇敢做梦，最求，难免伤痛。

This few months, the only thing that I remembered and I got so happy was when one of the Tuesday, you actually walked INTO MY CLASSROOM LIKE FINALLY and intended to talked to me, I supposed. But then I chose to go to your classroom. THIS WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY THAT DAY. Because you took some initiative. 

You know what? I am not angry with you. It's just that the way you acted make me very disappointed and it hurts. It really hurts. Every time I got home, I got to tell myself, 用工作麻醉自己吧. But it doesn't help. People are not born to please people. Ya, I know. I know in some way I am in wrong too. But... ARGHH. It really hurts. Really hurts. 

Letting go.... Maybe, it might be better for both of us. I don't know. 我伤到怕了。因为真的很痛。

T_T

Wanted to change my blogskin to a emo one... forget it.

Wow, It's me... See that? 

Look, that's me. And maybe Haslam too. We are both saddist. Ya, a word that I've just created. Saddist. I rock right?

Had a talked with Mil today and I can't believed that those words actually came out from my mouth. Amazing. This shows how much you guys have hurt me. Is just that I didn't show it in front of you people. Moreover, there's no point showing I guess.

Mid-year is coming and I am still here procrastinating. How awesome I am arh.

Told Haslam that I will open bar one day and it will be named FAC- Forever alone club/bar. And I will make this beer called "Loneliness " to all those who are out there feeling alone, don't worry, this drink are for you people.

No more happiness for me I guess. I have forgotten how happiness feel like. It's been a long time I really smiled with a happy feeling. I don't have that any more.

Forget it. No one will understand.

Are you the one?