Alone- Friends- Part 2

Sitting in front of computer typing this today, alone.

Friends, I seriously doubt this word, again. Who the hell invented this word? Who is it? ._.

Friends gives me so much trouble that I can't resist on. I have no idea whether did I lock my that post, but if I didn't, it would be great. Seriously.

This is like what happened to me and So Eui. This kind of thing happen again. Same period of time some more. -.-

Fate? It is fate that all the friends that I think we are close and best and knows me well will become like this? Or is it that I will eventually build a wall between them myself?

Saw this post today and I really have no idea whether it was referring to me:

I have been from translucent to transparent to you.

Wow?

Um.... I hesitated for a moment. To me, to this situation that we are facing on, it was seriously damn true.

Dear arh, why am I facing this kind of problem again like we did? ._. I seriously have no idea and don't understand. Can you teach me what to do? ._. I know right? The god is trying to play with me. He wants to take away me friends when I need them so much... like now, at this moment when I am facing a lot of shit problems... For about... 4 months already.

Sigh.

Oh, there you are on FB updating status at about 12 plus in K now? Posting in a language that I don't know....

Sigh.

When will my hell day be over? I want December to come now. Sadly, it is still July, ending soon. Time do really files. EOY coming and I am still suck at Sciences and English. What the hell am I doing? I am still suck at friendship even though I've met through lots of difficulties...

WHAT THE SHIT AND HELL AND.... AM I DOING???

What the... Seriously...

And I can't get my DSLR at the end of my 2 years.... ._.

I can't get Joe's book for now...

I can't go Sundown to look for Hebe...

I can't go whenever I like now.

I can't go London

I can't go Manchester to look for my Man Utd

I can't get an Iphone/ pod

I can't get whatever I want

I can't get a smart phone

I can't get a laptop FROM my own parents

I even think,

I can't go to Taiwan at the end of this year...

Everything is all....

I can't.

But

I need to face him EVERYDAY

I need to face those teachers who thinks they are good EVERYDAY... (accept for Weekends)

I need to get well for my studies in order to my life BETTER

I need to support her if not she will crash and burn.

I need to support these entire family ONE DAY

I need to get myself up

I need to face my stupid and crash Friendship

I need to face all my friends everyday with a fake smile

I need to GET all my stuff done before get screamed by Lao Feng again

I need to...

I need to...

I need to....

Then If I do all these,

WHO IS GOING TO SUPPORT ME?

I cannot get my Wants.

I only can get my needs...

Crap right? I am truly a no life teenager... Because,

I. AM. POOR.

I am not as rich as you or others.

I can't have a TV in my room.

My mum won't even buy my idol stuff for me. I have to get my own.

So,

I envy you. Seriously.

Since I am born to this world, 我就是命中注定。命中注定有这么一生。

He is now shaking his leg now, don't do anything. And SHE IS GOING TO CLEAR ALL HIS RUBBISH?? LIKE WHAT THE HELL

Like what the hell seriously...

I got to help too. I feel like to. I can't...

I should be the one working and not you all seriously...

FML FML FML FML FML!

Alone- friends part 1

Here I am sitting on my bed... Alone.

I was thinking and recalling of those times that we had.

Aren't they wonderful? Ya, they were... once wonderful and happy times we had...

Today, we can't go back anymore.

Remember when 娱乐帮 was first started? I bet none remember....

Even worse, I think they had forgotten what is 娱乐帮.

These days, I have been thinking what Rachel told me about the times when Me and Mil gave her a cold shoulder... She said that

"You should have told me earlier about all these..."

Ya, true. But I didn't thought of that at that moment although YZ told me and Mil to talk to her...

Remember the first time We went to watch Soccer match.... We were so happy! Taking photo like nobody's business...

At that time, I really thought that: These are my wonderful friends who will accompany me throughout my Journey.

I... was.... wrong?

Where are they now?

S.P.I.L.T

娱乐帮 has dismiss?

When?

Mildred is no longer that Mildred where she can talk to Rachel with any topic like nobody's business. Apart from us... Drifting like nobody's business

Wen Ting is no longer that happy Wen Ting... We seldom go out together now...

YZ remains the same but no longer that engage with Rachel... Seldom with Mildred... Often with me.... Frequently with 糖醋鱼 and Chua......

Rachel who is now with XY's clique, with JY, with Jon and whoever she likes in E1... Drifting from whoever she have been in Sec 1 and 2...

and Finally...

糖醋鱼。Jolene Teo

Drifting like nobody business too. Seldom talk like what we did in the past.We can talk any rubbish, anything we like. I can cry in front of her like she is my sister. I can be that crazy in front of her... but now I can't. Maybe she don't realise. But I do.

Very engage with YZ now. I can see. The only and one topic we had now is... Hebe?!

Is this all I want?

Obviously not.

Why our topic is only revolve around Hebe? Why do we have a wall between us now? I don't see a need to... but this stupid wall have just build up.

So, is Chua the only person I can talk to now... in our clique?

I am speechless.

Where are you all? Mildred, Yi Zhen, Rachel, Chua, Wen Ting and...

Jolene?

I miss the past. Really miss that.

Can we go back to that time?

全民女孩 part 1

最近在讀阿中寫的那本《上蒼選了妳》
感觸蠻多的。而且很多經典句詞。 。 。
現在回想，S​​真的受了很多痛。所以現在如果我跌倒，我會問我自己:
你受的傷有比她的痛嗎？
她的遭遇，真的很。 。 。
想到就有點感到傷感。但是從S的故事可以學到她的勇敢！ ！


今天陪了全民女孩走到第五十五天。

你真的太勇敢了！

我永遠會記住任爸所對阿中說的這句話:

面對，處理，放下。