Morning...

Early in the morning my feeling is very down.....

Yesterday. have a 1:30:35 hours talk with Jolene.

It makes me feel kind of sad. I am so sorry that I can't comfort you that much.

Although I did went through the same thing like you. I mean the feeling, but I am very sorry that I can't try to comfort you and give you some advice.....

A listening ear is really not enough dear Jolene. Really, it's not enough.....

恩董，我只能给你两个字

坚。强。

32 days left

Woke up quite early today. Later going to meet up with Ms Yi Zhen :)

Dearmt of dear LSE actually. Didn't post on FB cuz I think that will be very lol. Talk to her yesterday on FB chat. Once again, I think too much. Fine! I should just stop thinking about anything today and focus on my exam/project.

Many things just happened this week..... A bit tired but still need to CHIONG!!

Remember PYL
It's just 2 weeks to exam
MUST FOCUS!!
After that exam week,
you can have fun then :D

I realised that yesterday, 我把李小黄变成李小白...... OMG!!

Day 5
Left with 32 days

Reason for yesterday why I walked back from Compass to home is beacause, I wanted to think of what she have said to me. I would say that, I agreed with each and every point you said. Still, I need time to get over my feelings.

周杰伦有这么一首歌，
回到过去
但，你说的对，我们的关系已不能变回以前了。
记得有一次在电话中你有这样说过。
现在的我可能已无法像以前这样，说笑，玩。。。
我现在看到你，我无法面对你。
为什么？
我也不知道。

Just like today, when I looked at you at the library, I kept on putting my head on Jolene's shoulder just to avoid seeing you. Later, I went to sit beside Mildred so that I can totally not see you. When I wanted to find rachel, I still hesitated for a while which I don't have this feeling in the past......

算一算，这已经是我们没在学校说话的第四天。。。
就已我看着你，你看着我来过日子。

这，算是可悲的吧。

每天望着天空，我都有一种说不出的感觉。
就像我所说的，我无法表达出我心里说有的看法。
所以
我昨天
才会一直没说话。

我现在
一直
在倒数中。。。。

还有第33天。
第4天

我哭了

我。哭。了

我真的讲不出来。
我不会！
我只会哭。

所以你今天讲的话，
我。。。真的不知道我醒了吗？
我只会哭。

对于所有的事，
我只会哭。

我。哭。了

人生

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“人生就像一场赌局，不可能把把都赢，但只要筹码在自己手上，就会有希望“

这句话，很有意思
我只能说，
我的筹码块用完了。

回想起昨天的所有事，
我只能说，
是我想太多。
原本就没有的事，
是自己去认为才这样的。

但是，
我还是有很多心里话还没说出来

昨天
我唯一一之标喊的一句话就是

你。不。懂

放空

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆 没有皱折
你却用离开淌下句点

只能说我认了
你的不安得到的信任
我却得到你 安慰的淘汰
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我只能说，一旦放空，是一件很痛苦的事
恩董，我知道你的感觉了

我很累
累，累，累，累
我其实很不开心
但我得假装开心
为什么？
为什么？
我累了
每天在朋友们的面前嘻嘻哈哈
但其实
我内心深处
不是这样
我累了
我不想再这样
我累了
我累了





我。累。了

田馥甄 Hebe《寂寞寂寞就好》

非常喜欢副歌的歌词: 我寂寞寂寞就好
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了 伤到 快疯掉
死不了就还好

觉得这副歌的歌词很有意思

Yesterday received a very sad news, a very very sad news at night....

天下无不散之宴席

BUT

I don't want it to be so early......

A very big thank you

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This is the photo I wanted to post on my birthday. It turns out to have internet connection problem so can't post on that day. Anyway, this month is also 安以轩's birthday so... I LOVE THIS MONTH!! HAHAHA.....

A very big thank you to all my friends who have given me present for the pass few days. Thanks to MILDRED, YI ZHEN, RACHEL for the AWESOME poster! I really love it very much especially to Yi Zhen for spending her time doing on the poster. I really appreciate it very much. Thus, I am now trying to find a fram similar to this size and want to frame it up. I hope I can find it :D

Next, thanks to dear LJY for the nice wallet! DISS EEZ MAI WOH-LERD! hahaha.... Thank you very much. I would also like to thank you for what you have done in the past years with me and

my sister :D Thank you :D I LOVE THE WALLET!

Last but not least to LSE! Thank you for giving me this two cute hamster I would say that. It is really very cute! LOVE IT!! Remember, it's call 李小黄 白小呵 :D hahahaha THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!

Oh ya and to VICKI! Thanks for the card. I am not gonna to post it up here cuz the card is too censored. Anyway, I hope dear Vicki will not do this card again.... BUT thanks for you birthday wish and your time to do this card! :D

This wallet which is from LJY!

AWESOME poster from dear 4/5 娱乐帮 :D

AWESOME cute hamster from LSE! :D

Also thank you to all people who wished me happy birthday via FB or via msg THANKS!

I am really very touched by all of you. Here, I want to say a very big THANK YOU to all of you!

活在世上的第十四年。。。。

今天是我活在世上的第十四年。很感谢朋友们的祝贺！我真的超感动。

活在世上的十四年里，有很多喜怒哀乐。但，很庆幸的是，因为我身边有你们这些朋友，才让我度过这些时光。家人，你们也一样。

今天，我收到了很多你们的祝福。谢谢你们。特别是李昭宜。非常感谢你！我超喜欢你送的两只可爱的仓鼠。。。。哈哈哈哈你知道我在说什么的。

现在的我已经十四岁了，所以我告诉我自己，我不可以在这么贪玩了。今天Ms Goh 所说的一切我都会放在心里。初级学院，大学。。。。这些，是我现在应该好好思考的东西。感谢您今天为我们说了那么多有关初级学院的东西。我。。。。现在。。。已经。。。。有了一个目标。。。

十四岁的我要比以前更加成熟。不可以像以前这样这么儿童盘。。。这就是所谓的CHILDISH!! :D 所以咯，对我来说，每一年一过生日就是要比一年还要成熟。。。

我现在要在这里徐我的三个愿望！

第一: 我希望我身边的所有人都能够健健康康，平平安安。

第二: 我希望我的成能够达到我想要的让我能够去我要的科目。

第三: 我怎么可能说呢？若我说了那我就是白痴啊！哈哈哈！

让这里能够圆满的结束，我要post 上一个我最满意东西。。。。。

算了，有问题，明天再来！

Well....

No photos for this week yeah? :D

Went back to school for photoshoot. Quite nice actually... I mean the pose. Hope it comes out to be the one i expect. :D

Homework not done yet. Hope to finish it asap :D

Dream....

Woke up today first thing was recalling my dream. LOLS!

Dreamt that there's this one siao person who wants to kill teachers, using some food with some vanish chemical. The moment you eat it, you will vanish. First, this person target Mr Zhuo. Then Mr Zhuo eat it then Vanish....lols... After this is Ms Tan. We all knew the trick then we all rush to find Ms Tan asking her to be very careful of what she eating. So she went to the canteen. The person who wanted to kill her adding something into her food. Out of a sudden Ms Tan's husband came in?!?!?! Don't know what happened to him, he died. Leaving Ms Tan with 2 children. ?!?!?! LOLS! Yup thats is Ms Tan KY's part. Suddenly, in the dream, someone ran to me and told me that Ms Goh is pregnant?!?! LOLS!

Lols dream... really lols....

lols.

If dying can solve any problem, I will be the first one who will be glad to do so.

Lols. Now so fustrated with my cough and Lee So Eui's damn idiot problem. Since she don't know my blog I can post more.

Not trying to talk bad of her, Cuz I would not do so. First, I love her very much. She is my sister cum mother. It just that her action makes me feel so uncomfortable, just like my cough. Like I just said to ahma, Her action, way of speaking, it just make me so uncomfortable, make me think more. The way she answer to me then to people is way too different in the past few days after my e-moing inccident . I don't know in what way I have 得罪到她. I just don't understand you know? Or is I think too much? I really want to open her brain and check it out. What are you thinking in your mind? Maybe you might ask me to ask her just like what ahma did, but I.... don't have the courage doing so. Really, no.

Damn fustrated problem makes me feel not to call her tmr. She asked me to do so cuz of my that e-moing problem. Her way of reaction makes me think if I want to call her a not. Thats the most annoying part. I....I.... tired of this also.

I am so tired of all this problem. Really! That idiot person which makes me e-mo for the past 3 days, cause me to lock myself up you can go die. Like I said, If you don't like the place you are living right now, you can just get out of the place! NOBODY! LOOK! NOBODY ASK YOU TO FORCE YOURSELF TO DO SO! Since you like to go out so much, you can just get out and don't come back! Don't come back for the sick of doing so. Hell...... Its really damn annoyed.....

I am so tired, but I can't just go like that. I have things which I have not done....