“有一天，你若是能進到我的心裏，你一定會落淚，因爲那裏都是你給的悲傷”

Remember you retweeted this one day?

Now, it's my turn to retweet back this to you。

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I am hurt deeply. Really deep. 

你说把爱渐渐，放下会走更远。。。

Tweeted that on Tuesday. I can't take it anymore. For the entire day, I couldn't get myself focus because I am thinking about this problem. I wish I could lock myself up for the rest of the year. Taking exam at home if possible (Joke lah, that won't happen). Today, I nearly can't focus on my paper because she was sitting in front of me and I've to face her back view. Omg.... WHY CAN'T MY REGISTER NUMBER BE LIKE NUMBER 1? ._. 

Came in and blogged today because I wish after what I've blogged about today, things will put to a stop. It hurts. Yes, it definitely hurts. But what hurts most is that, we hold it on and don't let it go. I see no point of holding on if everyday, we like ignoring each other, pretending that we are "BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE" when you are actually with the others and I am with my own group. We have no interaction at ALL totally ZERO interaction.  Not like YZ and Mil you know? At least they will come and talk to me. THEN? The most hurt and hated thing is that I HAVE TO BE THE ONE THAT WALKS UP OR SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME THAN YOU WILL COME AND TALK TO ME. ._. Like that Thursday when I had my Chem SPA and I cried. 

还要一起冲，还一起勇敢做梦，最求，难免伤痛。

This few months, the only thing that I remembered and I got so happy was when one of the Tuesday, you actually walked INTO MY CLASSROOM LIKE FINALLY and intended to talked to me, I supposed. But then I chose to go to your classroom. THIS WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY THAT DAY. Because you took some initiative. 

You know what? I am not angry with you. It's just that the way you acted make me very disappointed and it hurts. It really hurts. Every time I got home, I got to tell myself, 用工作麻醉自己吧. But it doesn't help. People are not born to please people. Ya, I know. I know in some way I am in wrong too. But... ARGHH. It really hurts. Really hurts. 

Letting go.... Maybe, it might be better for both of us. I don't know. 我伤到怕了。因为真的很痛。