Wednesday, November 30, 2011

。。。


其實,對於某些事有什麽發展,什麽結果,我真的並不在乎。我在乎的是,在我身邊的人能不能感受到人與人之間彼此的距離?能不能感受到當下的他或她其實是不開心的?我身邊的人能不能敏感一些?

我只能說,我身邊的人還不夠敏感。尤其是對於某些事物。

剛剛去看了喬恩的blog。我只能說,我的心真的平靜下來了許多。我,又再次想了一些事情。

變了這個話題又再次浮現在我腦海裏。其實啊,活在這世上有十五年之久的我還不得不承認,我現在真的一直在變,而且變得超快。

人活在當下怎麽可能不變?但是最怕的是他或她可能變得更加恐怖。這或許是你能預料到的,也或許是你不能預料到的。有時,最讓人傷心的是看到最愛的變了,而且變得連你的心都告訴你 “這真的是我認識的你嗎?” 的時候,這是極度恐怖又傷心的。

最近我又不得不承認,身邊的友人也逐漸不斷的在變。

人都是會變的,這是我們必須去接受的事實。

剛在巴士上想念了某人。我現在真的真的好想抱住她然後痛哭一場。實在憋得太久了。
想到了去年某一天的時被她抱住讓后把心裏所有的不開心通通哭出來,那時我心裏真的束縛了許多。

可是現在不能再這樣了。我整整憋了一年,心裏超不舒服的。

雖然這一路上有不同的人讓我訴苦,但是這些人都比不過她那一番真的了解我的心。

真的好像回到從前。
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我變了,

這是我害怕的地方,

因為似乎再不能用我所認知的去看待我所認知的一切了。

因為那些我所認知的,總是一一打壓著我。

再近一步,就有痛苦。

而退一步,我無法對自己交代清楚。

我想

我變了,我想我不再那樣了。。。




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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

\m/

Watched MAMA just now. This made me thought of those days when Hebe came to SG and I am like a crazy Siao-ing about her! Super nice!

Just know that Hebe will be coming to SG next year again!! OMG! Die. Won't be able to go to her concert... I mean SOLO concert for sure.

T.T Sian diao.

Alright, nvm will see how things goes on next year. Shall start revising tmr since Hebe's time is over! Super looking forward to Christmas and a outing soon with Mily and outing soon with beloved 269! XD

Next year 2012, busy and crazy year, but I'm still afraid of 2012.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

怎麼辦

好快,一年要過去了。

現在心情真的很。 low. 就連我自己都不知道為什麼會這樣。

還記得兩天前到K box 唱歌的那個時候。當她唱《還是要幸福》時,我變得超沉默。因為腦海裡一直浮現那些畫面,差點噴淚。但還好,我忍住了。

想了好多。但是我看還是別在這裡說出吧。

是時候該學會如何不把所有事情都說出來。學會憋住。
因為有時候說太多,就算了解你的人也不會聽進去。
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Last day

Jaylin was right. My world doesn't revolve around her. If I continue the way I am now, it will be seen as I am living for her only.

XY and the others were back from their camp. Great and happy to hear that. I can't go out today because if I do, I might not be able to go for Hebe's autograph session although I did said that I don't want to. Okay, I'm weird.

Was fuming mad because of something yesterday. See through something through yesterday's incident. Now I really know who are the ones that will really be with me.

Thanks to them.

For now, I won't say anything much. I've been an idiot throughout the whole session. I am stupid.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

:/

Evening.

Feel so down after talking to JY while walking back from school. Jon was like walking in front of us and didn't even bother to reply us when we called him. What's wrong with people now a days? -.- Walao jidan right? Really very tired sia.

And for now, don't really feel like going to Hebe's autograph session already. Like seriously. I. Don't. Feel. Like. Going.

Feel like deleting everything. I really don't understand why people tend to forget what they've said so easily? They have STM is it? Wts. Then why I am the one that has good memories and remembered everything they've said? WTH RIGHT?

I should become STM also right? Really sick and tired.

I should really have my life back and become myself again. It has been 3 months already and this kind of shit haven't even settle. Omg... 269, where are all of you? I want my happy life back!!!

FML. :/

This is not the first day already.

Stop.

I should really stop tweeting lah. Omg, PYL, What the fuck are you doing? ._.

Sometimes I just can't stand myself for being so.... Jidan

Ya, sometimes I am like a shit too. So when I can I stop this rubbish?

Sian...

Can't sleep like now. Wth?

And

I haven't finish my story...

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Fuck myself. ._. Really. FML

:/


Have some weird thoughts yesterday.

But I think this thoughts will hardly come true. I am still very puzzled. Very very...
The weird thoughts:

1) Go outside the F1 pit and wait for her, then go home together on the 26th
2) Calling out Shu Hui for Hebe's 簽唱會 + HK and her and go together although I won't have the what stupid priority. Like wts :/
3) Talk to her later in the day if she is going to school/lunch if she can have lunch

But all these weird thoughts will hardly come true :/ Really and no joke.

Currently still waiting for something.

LJY disappoint me too. :/ Why I call you = this matter?
Like... Omg. Why? I don't understand. Really don't.

Sian... 知己is like that de meh? Wth... ._.

Disappointment everywhere. :/

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Good or not?

Totally sian diao like just now.

Decided to 退出工委活動 and I like sms-ed the in-charge like 2 hour ago and SHE IS NOT REPLYING ME!!! Omg... I am afraid she is like angry so something. How can a person didn't check her phone for like 2 hours? ._.
Some more, just know that those who bought Sundown tickets will have the priority to queue for Hebe's autograph. Like wow. So this is the "報應" for not getting sundown tickets? ._. Totally sian diao can?

Sian....

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

哎呀

Finally, a normal post I guess.

Love this song by Vanness Wu - 哎呀. 安以軒客串演出!!! WOOT! They are so sweet in the MV! Back to 光稀 and 幕橙 days.... :D

安以軒 rocks yo~~ The melody is nice too! 輕飆飆的感覺。聼了很舒服。

Today was quite okay. Went back to school and crapping with JY and Nai nai. Have lunch with usual group and went off.

I really hope this kind of mood will last like forever, but I doubt so. Keep telling myself not to think too much, but.... I am still thinking.

Dateline gonna be up,
Are you ready?

我們

聼得出,你唱到要哭了。

我們。
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第三章


第三章: 無聲的呐喊

小章背著書包來到大海前。突然,天空變得非常灰暗,海水波濤洶湧的打上岸邊。小章擡頭一看,老天竟在那兒。

“爲什麽要如此殘忍?” 小章問道。

“什麽如此殘忍?你再説什麽?這還不是你自己造成的,不是嗎?如果你相信,其實人也能掌控自己的命運。你可以選擇不離開,可是你離開了。你可以選擇繼續作非常,非常要好的朋友,但是你選擇了一個不。你看,我說的是不是有道理呢?你問問自己,我幾時對你殘忍過了?我心地善良的很!” 老天答道。

小章愣在那兒。然後看著大海。淚不由自主地從臉上划了下來。小章便蹲下去,哭了。

“終于找到你了!” 小穎道。“你怎麽了?”

小穎把小章扶了起來。

小穎告訴小章

“你們啊。。。其實,機會是要自己去製造的。如果你明白我的意思,你就去吧!”

小章似乎明白小穎所說的話,站了起來,和小穎回家去。
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Monday, November 14, 2011

第二章


第二章: 漸漸地

不知爲何,很快的,一轉眼,新的一年又開始了!小章和往常一樣,開開心心的和小魚一起玩樂。在這期間,小章認識了一位非常要好的朋友- 小穎。小穎是個超搞笑的一位女孩。雖然她傻乎乎的,人人都叫她 RETARD! 可是,她的思想卻很不一樣。被感情傷到了,人也漸漸成熟了。而小魚還是一樣和小婷作好朋友。倆人分別在不同的班,但然認識的人也不一樣。但是感情還是和往常一樣。

某天,老馮很高興得告訴全班

“各為親愛的同學們!我們將在六月到上海去!有興趣的同學來和老馮報名吧!”

那時想出國想到風的她們當然就去報名了啊!

上海好好玩!超級無敵的美!

但是,沒想到一去上海就好像180度的轉變。轉變真的好大。
小章,忽然之間,慢慢的離開小魚。

小魚很疑惑,也很傷心。不知道爲何小章要離開她。日哭夜哭。哭到大海的水都快淹過正常海水綫的水平。但是她還是一直哭,一哭。。。

而小章呢?小章背著書包,到了很遠,很遠的地方。。。

這其中的原因。。。
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第一章


第一章: 開始

很久很久以前,在這世上有兩位很奇特的人。章魚燒,糖醋魚。她們非常,非常,特別要好。
她們有共同的嗜好,共同的性格。所以可以説是天注定要相遇的。
小章想都沒想到,原來有人和她一樣喜歡 CQE!! 從她十嵗開始,身邊的朋友都沒有一個人和她喜歡一樣的偶像。現在沒想到身邊有一個和她一樣的人讓她感到無比的吃驚!

從此,她們就真的非常要好。好到可以什麽都可以說,什麽都可以做。小章就在那一年裏做了很多從來沒有做過的事,去了很多從來沒有去過的地方。而這些事物都是小魚帶她去的。小章在那一年裏過得真的很開心,很開心。當中認識了很多朋友。

小章做過最瘋狂的是就是- 去金曲獎看阿碧。

從此她們倆就喜歡上了阿碧。

別誤會!阿碧不是什麽帥哥!阿碧是亞洲女子天團ABC 的成員!!
天啊!從此以後,她們就開始瘋狂追阿碧。

讓小章最難忘的就是那一天,一月十五日一起去聼阿碧音樂會的時候。

超難忘的!

小章真的,真的,真的很開心!
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Friday, November 11, 2011

冰箱


把大象放进冰箱有几个步骤
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤
把回忆放进冰箱会不会寂寞
把爱情放进冰箱已经到了时候

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让爱情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后 就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后 别在门口等我

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让热情退冰多久
才可以化为乌有
从今以后再不需要别人哄我
从今以后 就算分手
从今以后日记再也不用上锁
从今以后 甚至不是朋友
苹果给你 柠檬给我
可乐给你 咖啡给我
自由给你 真心给我
你的给你 我的你不能带走
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后 就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后 别在门口等我
从今以后 别在门口等我
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這兒歌詞實在太形容我現在的心情。本來今天的 SIO 是要開心一整天,可是我做不到。今天在回返的路上,我又Emo了。
不知爲什麽,你每次會忘記我說過的話。你似乎不相信我講的東西。而我呢?我卻相信你說的每一句話。你給的承諾我都記得,但是爲什麽你會忘記我講過的話?
你給我的又是失望。._.

今天和Xue Ying 聊了還算蠻多的。聊了最近鉄四角出現的問題。看吧,就連鉄四角也出現了問題。真的很心酸。有時候真的很想放棄,不想每天跟著人家的腳步走。我走累了,可不可以人別人跟著我?
爲什麽人要面對這麽多問題呢?如果能自自自在在的活這不是很好嗎?我不喜歡這樣的生活,真的不喜歡。一個問題過了又是另一個。這種沒完沒了的日子真的很累。._.

让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤

Thursday, November 10, 2011

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Feeling so down now.... Sudden down. No idea why am I feeling this way.....
Had Chinese Os today. The paper is like... omg it gives me a suck feeling.
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The "LOVE" Chocolate.... Do you still remember?

Saturday, November 05, 2011

怎么会哭


终于不再问了 你想要什么
终于不再迁就 你提的每个要求

终于不再执着 当你只求离开我
我决定让你走
不要你跟着我受折磨 呜~呜~

怎么怎么
我以为我能撑得住
能承受失去你的 孤独

怎么怎么
明明我微笑着说出
只要你能过得幸福 我就很满足
再用不着承诺 你的明天没有我
再用不着担忧
没办法陪伴你寂寞 呜~呜~

怎么怎么
我以为我能撑得住
能承受失去你的 虚无

怎么怎么
难道我还不够知足
还不舍从前的相处

我不能怎么
就不要你看我无助
让你觉得爱我是 错误

怎么 有什么好
只要你能过的幸福
就算再苦我也彷佛
得到了祝福
我只能告诉我自己,
我不能哭。

“糖醋鱼一直在你的身边,但只能默默地陪着你”
章鱼少一直在你的身边,但只能默默地看着你的背影离去。

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傻吗?

原来做了这么多最后还是空。真的很。。。
我也有些不明白,为什么会变常这样呢?本来我还有点希望的,可是现在好像又变暗了。
我现在是生气,不甘心加上伤心。
你很为难,那我呢?难道你忘了我在信中写了些什么吗?我并没有忘记你在信中写了些什么。真的很无奈。
就是因为我们对彼此坦白,所以事情还没解决。很无奈。

真的。。。回不了从前了吗?

悲。

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

Back?

Are we back to the same point? I wondered.

After that 2 months or so, we ate on the same table together for yesterday... Like finally.... Do all sorts of stupid things to her... That was what I will do in the past.

Are we back to normal? Or there's still a gap between us....

I was like...

Today walked back together with her from PP. Then it was like... So quite all the way until we met Haslam and his group.

WOW! This wasn't the way we used to be...

I don't like this.

I want a hug... like now.